Baby books have been around for I don't know how long now & I don't know of a single mother in the world who doesn't have one. Those books have a flaw though. They should extend far past babyhood. They should go into the junior high years and even later still into the senior high years and married life. Take it one step more into motherhood for your baby's baby book. Yes, do trace your child's life slam up until she herself is a mother. I mean after all, she is YOUR baby regardless of age.

In the junior high years you could post for your precious angel a picture...the same one that's in the year book because you and all of Gods angels know she's not going anywhere with the family for a potrait it's just not cool! The year book picture would show her with hair as hard as concrete and a hard headed attitude to match. It would be nice if you could clip a sprig or two for the little envelope on the corner of the page but that would require the blade of a granite tile cutter & his skills. In these your baby's "blossoming" school years she is an Einstein & the darling girl knows it all and only listens to what you have to say if you're saying "yes". This is also the time that you as a mother will begin to lose any sense of sanity you were once so blessed with. Note this in the form of a graph right there on the junior high page of your baby's baby book so that you can begin to track just exactly when it is you'll need to take your very first Prozac dose!

In the senior high years of your little angel you'll start to see where she really does have a brain and it looks as if she may be allowing it to do other things outside of control her breathing and other involuntary reflex actions. Such pride you feel in her until she starts to hang out with HIM...the one whose soul purpose in life is to see how close he can come to making you like one of the followers of Charles Manson. Your baby thinks he's cooler than the latest IPod while you want to beat him to death with one! Who is this girl now? You had her! You raised her thus far! What happened? The only way you could possibly get her attention when he's around would be to set yourself on fire and that would only add to the already mounting expense of her being a senior. You should probably put a match to the senior high baby book page as a reminder of your rage against him and her lack of attention where you, her mother is concerned! Just set it on fire for a second or two then put it out. Years from now this charred page will serve to remind you of the fact that you would've gone to hell had you done what you then wanted. It would bring you some pleasure great or small to know that HE is by now married with 6 kids and living in a single wide with his family. What did you expect on a Sonic Burger salary? One other thing, you should probably stop and say a little prayer that he doesn't grow up to be the CEO of Samsung. Should fate throw in this curve ball then by all means be prepared to either tolerate the "I told you so" thing or move & change your identity.

Awwww...look at the baby book page now! She's getting married! Your wallet's going: "You're kidding me right?" but it's the last thing you'll do for her as your baby. At least that's what you tell yourself. So you chip in here and there. You get what you can so that her day will be special. Who cares that you have an abcessed tooth, ingrown toe nails and a bad back? You'll pay last months power bill this month and this month's power bill next month and there you go...your little darling has what she's always wanted for her wedding. You'll stand back and watch her be all giggly with her bridesmaids and bridal shower guests while you brown bag some of the food since you can no longer afford to eat unless its out of a garbage can. You'll sit back and notice how her hair is the color of yours and has the same curl to it. She'll turn to the side and you'll think how she looks like her daddy but face on she reminds you of yourself. You'll remember the teenage angst and the battles, the laughter and the tears and then she'll walk down the isle in that dress and you'll think when it's all done....ALL THAT FOR LESS THAN 30 MINUTES?!?!? ...and she's gone. The next time you see her and her husband the two of you will be almost like strangers and your heart will break. It will be the one and only time you'll wish your little angel had never met him. He helped her grow up. On this baby book page you should probably put a picture of just you and her. A picture of her right after you had her because it was in that moment that your heart was so filled with love that no one else on earth existed. Put that picture there and no other. You'll need to turn to this page more as time goes on.

The last and final page of your baby's baby book should be when she's got a baby of her own. For nine months you'll wonder what her baby will look like as much as she will. You'll watch her belly grow, watch her wobble when she walks and you'll dread for her her labor pains. He'll call you when it's time and you'll be so anxious you can hardly sit still but she doesn't want you near and every piece of advise you give her is met with a smirk. You'll wonder why. What did you do? How long has she thought of you as an annoyance? What is it that you're doing that annoys her so? Is it everything or does it just feel like it. You've never heard her speak to any other adult the way she speaks to you. You were the one who taught her not to do such a thing & so you can literally feel your heart shatter when she looks at you that way and spits out words so nasty they sting. You'll catch yourself time and again not saying anything at all to avoid that "useless" feeling. When did it happen that everything you say is immediately labeled as stupid, ridiculous, foolish or even red neck? When did this child of yours stop caring if she hurt your feelings and would often times rather hurt yours than her friends? When did you become an after thought? You will remember times when, even though she was right there you would still call her on your way home or send her an e mail from work. You'll catch yourself in a disbelieving state physically speaking the words...."we were so close". Wrestle with your memory and see if you can figure out when it was that she started giving you short answers to questions meant to spark a conversation. She once would share her news and you would share yours and the conversation always ended in "I love you". Write that down on this the last page of your baby's baby book. Write in bold red print....."I LOVE YOU" then find a picture of your baby...make it your favorite picture. It doesn't matter how old she was in it just that it's your favorite for whatever reason. Now place that picture there with the words then close the book and put it away. The world is full of things to do and you've done the biggest one already. Go and find the you that was almost completely lost in the role of being mom...but always have your phone turned on because you never know when she might call to say "I love you Mom."